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This is a story of the beginning of my special experiences, perfect divine guidance to my unique path, and discovering the best version of myself. The story of awakening.
It has been a while since I dug deep into the field of personal development, I was looking for ways to fix myself or to find myself as I had this weird feeling that I did not know who I was, I did not know where I belong. I was trying to fit in and lived by everyone else's standards. I had a lot of knowledge and information, I knew many different methods that should help me to figure things out, but that lack of self-confidence and self-belief was so in the way. I had changed and improved a lot during the years, but my self-confidence was yet not at the level of my satisfaction. My critical voice in the head was still too active, I saw too many negative details in my life, I was not happy. So one day I decided to go for an RTT (rapid transformational therapy) session. I knew about this method for a while, I collected quite some information about that and I was contemplating learning the skill to become an RTT practitioner as I always wanted to help people and this method showed really impressive results. And of course in the back of my head, I had a thought - maybe when I learn the skill, I could present myself as an RTT therapist, then I could proudly say who I am! I sure was not proud of the job I was doing then and I know I could offer a lot more.
Here I am, sitting in my newly met RTT therapist Anna's fluffy chair, not sure of what to expect as it is the first time I would be hypnotized. But I am all excited and sure that this session will change my life… And sure it did! I am under hypnosis, so relaxed I can’t move my body. I follow Anna’s guidance through those significant situations of my childhood trying to figure out when, where, or how this my self-confidence was lost. Trying to dig out the mental blocks that are stopping me from being the best version of myself. And so the most fun part of the session was when I had to imagine myself as a tiny little detective with the flashlight walking inside of my body searching for some type of object that is stuck somewhere and that does not let my energy flow as it normally should. The craziest thought came up - it is a wooden pin that is stuck in my brain. So I go to remove it and throw it away… somewhere in the forest where it belongs. I decided that the tiny hole will completely heal in two weeks. So it was done!
And the fun has started there… I went for a run in the forest nearby as I was trying to stick to my new daily routine of exercise. I was so full of energy after the session. So I plugged in my earphones, picked a song on YouTube, and took off. Suddenly a new song came up and the lyrics brought me tears, it was so precisely reflecting my situation. Check it out yourself!
Stuck in a rut you can't get out
There's too much causing you doubt
No cash, no job, no self-esteem
Me I'll take it and not give in
If you got a head you should use it
Opportunity, don't want to lose it
Climb over the walls, break down all the doors
When your future calls
Don't let nothing hold you down
Nothing hold you down, down
Don't let nothing hold you down
Nothing hold you down, down, yeah
Just surviving and living
Just surviving and living
Just surviving and-
Stuck in a rut you can't get out
There's too much causing you doubt
No cash, no job, no self-esteem
Me I'll take it and not give in
They may wreck your dreams if you let them
Keep the goals in sight, don't forget them
Keep your head up high, yes the future's bright
Keep your head up high
Don't let nothing hold you down
Nothing hold you down, down
Don't let nothing hold you down
Nothing hold you down, down, yeah
From that day my synchronicities started flowing, any question I had in mind, was answered by an upcoming YouTube video, by somebody’s shared message on Facebook, or song lyrics, and so on.
I remember sharing some details with Anna, as at that point I did not have many people around who could understand these weird things happening. So I asked her in one of my emails:
‘’ I have been trying to figure out my best way to move on with my goals, finances, RTT, online marketing... What's the fastest way to desired results and what's the most fulfilling... Quite an issue... That makes me think... Is it up to me to figure out the path and steps to reach my goals or I could just maintain the happy feeling and allow things to come through me, just follow the
Divine guidance… I know, it might sound crazy, but if you can relate I have a question: to get the best results, by your experience, what is a better way - struggling, pushing, going out of your comfort zone and so on... Or the best is to focus within, learn to follow the guidance, and trust that everything is working out in the process?‘’
I was so pleased and happy with her answer: ‘’I think the best way is always to listen within, learn to interpret your intuition and follow your path BUT if that path is taking you outside your comfort zone then you’ll need to push forward a bit since your subconscious mind will always try to keep you away from the “new and unknown” to keep you safe.’’
I was so excited to finally have found one person that can understand ‘’ my language’’. I was trained to struggle through life with very little results and it did not lead me where I wanted to go, but now I started experiencing my inner guidance. This path was new and a bit scary for me so having some support from the side was crucial. I have been so grateful for this special connection ever since.
So I kept following my guidance, I was observing my thoughts more, I was focusing on my feelings more trying to sense the intuition, trying to figure out how things work in this beautiful world.
I kept following my morning routine with the forest run/walk and meditation, I could not afford to miss it. I was sure that this was clearing my mind. Most of the magical things were happening during my forest walks. I started calling it ‘’The healing forest’’. The forest became the place of my connection with The Source, with that Divine Power, with the Ultimate Intelligence, with the Collective Consciousness, with the Universe, with God, with the All-Loving Energy. We call it different names based on our upbringing, culture, religion, and so on, but it is all the same. And if you could for a moment put aside your personal beliefs, knowledge and through years collected information, restrictions, and rules around the subject, if you could just feel it, feel it with your heart... Feel that all-knowing wisdom, that endless unconditional love, that deep compassion and care for You, that power of unlimited goodness. Well, that's what I mean. We all are spiritual beings in the physical bodies having a physical experience on this earth. Somehow many of us were conditioned to believe otherwise.
My experiences in the forest opened my heart and sharpened my senses as if I was seeing the world through 3D glasses. I was able to see all the greatness of nature, appreciate the tiniest details. There was no end to my joy and happiness just for being alive. My heart was so full of love I wanted to share it with the whole world. I was feeling in love with life. The ideas were flowing to me, the answers were coming in no time. I was trying to wrap my thoughts around what's happening, I was trying to understand with my logical mind, I wanted to know how things are working in this world and what is my place in all this ‘’game’’.
I could wonder about something, running some questions in my head for a day, and during my morning forest run all questions would be answered precisely. I was playing videos on YouTube randomly and whatever came first - was exactly what I needed to hear and then on auto-play, the next perfect video was coming. I started sensing people more as I knew up front what they would say even before they opened their mouths, I felt like I read their minds somehow. The strange feeling of knowing and being sure that everything is the way it should be, and that things are unfolding perfectly. I was being guided by The Source most amazingly and I felt blessed to even notice the details. I felt like I was going through the darkness and Divine power was lighting up a candle one step at a time for me to follow the right path. And even those days when I was not in alignment and did not feel this strong connection I was trusting that the guidance is still there. Yes, there still were days when I slipped my feet into the mud of negativity, but they did not last long. I would find my way to joy, peace, and happiness much faster than ever before. A while ago some negative situation could bring me down for a week, month, or even more, now I would ‘’enjoy’’ the low moments for a day or two and then some magical video would come and bring me some meaningful realization and gratitude would flow my heart bringing tears of joy. I was searching for a way to feel good all the time. So I discovered several strategies and methods I will share in other posts sometime. But as well I realized that feeling good all the time is not necessary, because our feelings are not something you want to get rid of, it is our inner compass or personal GPS that lets us know if we follow the right path or we run out in the weeds. In other words, negative feelings are as valuable and important as good feelings if you learn to understand them.
One of the happy days in my healing forest something took me out of the main path and I felt like going through the middle of the forest, it just felt fun and I followed the impulse. Not long after I saw a big fallen tree lying across a tiny path. It was still green so I assumed it fell not so long ago. The weirdest thought came to my mind - this is my wooden pin! The imaginary wooden pin I removed out of my brain during my hypnosis session and then threw it away into the forest. This was funny but at the same time empowering as I climbed on top of the tree and danced along to the music all victorious - I have conquered my biggest enemy standing in the way - myself. And the time to reinvent myself has come. I have learned to love myself, to trust myself, to see my value, I was finally enough the way I was. My confidence problem was gone. And the tree was a symbol representing all that. By the way, the day I discovered my fallen tree was exactly two weeks after the therapy session. Do you remember the time that wound in my brain was supposed to heal? Yes, two weeks! An how awesome is that?
As if this day was not special enough - The Source Message came up on my Facebook stream.
September 26th Source Message:
You literally have an inner revolution happening within. Your mind is challenging core beliefs you’ve held your entire life. You’re seeing people for who they really are after years of thinking you knew them otherwise. You’re challenging the status quo. You’re no longer just an observer to your experiences but you’re acknowledging your ability to command them. This uprising of yours is something not everyone gets to experience. It will be the greatest chapter of your book.
I still get goosebumps on my skin just reading it. So The Source is sending me direct messages now, or what? I could not believe my eyes, it was an amazingly overwhelming moment I would never forget. I remember sharing this experience with Anna saying that if I am going crazy - I like it!
Call me crazy I don’t mind, by now it is like a compliment to me. At least it is not normal - sad, anxious, depressed, overwhelmed normal.
I hope my story will inspire you to go and look for your guidance, to follow your intuition instead of other people's opinion, to go out of your comfort zone, to conquer yourself, and become the best YOU you could ever be! Don't be afraid to dream, to try new things, to fail - get up, learn from your mistakes and repeat the process. Search for your personal path, unleash your imagination, and let the Divine power guide you to your love, joy, happiness, and fulfillment in life.
I love you all!